Hmmm

Britney Spears 5"4 130 lbs. 21.6

Diana Ross 5’4 100 lbs. 17.2

Drew Barrymore 5'4 120 lbs. 20.6

Keri Russell 5'4 117 lbs. 20.1

Kirsten Dunst 5"4 100 lbs. 17.2

Lacey Chabert 5'4 105 lbs. 18.0

Michelle Williams 5'4 110 lbs. 18.9

Shania Twain 5'4 110 lbs. 18.9

Stacey Dash 5'4 110 lbs. 18.9


Some, in my opinion are outrageously too thin..

Pears

I'm getting super frustrated. I need to do a major clothing shopping trip. I keep shrinking, which is great! But now I've got a ton of loose skin (ew). I've also aquired my lovely pear shape back. All of my pants are big in the waist and not small in the legs but not as big as in the waist. Ya know? So I have hardly anything to wear really. UGH!

Anyways.. I have to go finish getting ready to take my daughter to get her year and a half shots.

AH!

Why does shit consume me so much? Why do I constantly obsess? Why do I 2nd guess myself all the time? I was perfectly fine. Now this has taken over my brain and it's frustrating me.


Damn these people... (see inside)

Takin' a Breather

Okay.. So, my Husband got another job.. In a place he worked like 2 years ago. It was the best job oportunity for him right now. He had to take a slight pay cut but I think we'll be okay. I'm doing the whole selling book thing but I'm pretty much just breaking even. I've also been ponding the thought of giving beginners piano lessons to make a little extra cash. It's something I've just been rolling around in my head the past couple days. I have no idea where to start. I took lessons for 7 years and I was damn good if I may say so. My Mom suggested I call my old teacher and ask her some questions about starting it up. Plus, I have to price out music and try and get students.. Should be interesting if I do it.

Otherwise, not much else goin' on here. Nothing new anyways..

We're just able to breathe now that we know we will be having some cash coming in.

The Price of Being Happy

My Husband got laid off..

2 Words.... WE'RE FUCKED.

We had a good 6 months.. Aparantly though our life is supposed to suck..

The List Keeps Building.

I'm so totally tired it's unreal. I offically added another job title to my list today. Business Owner. I've got my Amazon shop up and running. Troutman Books & Beyond. I have already made some sales so I've been running around buying up those bubble envelopes and labels and all that jazz.. I've made a list of a bunch of stuff I have to get. Thank goodness for my Mom too. She gave me a few helpful tips. Bless her soul.

I've been so busy with everything and it's pissing me off cause I'm starting to not be able to sleep again. Which scares the shiz out of me to be completely honest. I need unchemicalized sleep or my brain just goes all wacky.

I'm losing weight on the Weight Watches.. Well, I technically only did the counting points thing for like a week. Once I got the jist of it I started eating way more veggies and getting more exercise. And it's just sheddin' off. Which makes me happy. I'm offically back down to pre pregnant with 1st Baby Girl weight. YaY!!

Whatever.. I need to try and go to bed.

Blessing

When I was younger, I never wanted any kids at all. Now I have the two most amazing little girls in the whole world and I know that I was supposed to have children. I was supposed to be a Mommy. There are somedays when the two I have is enough and I think I could go the rest of my life with out having anymore. Then, there are days like today. Where I could stand having six kids! or 8 kids! They are the most amazing things in the world. There is absolutly nothing better then to watch them learn and grow. To see their smiling faces when you get them up in the morning. Nothing will melt your heart more then when you hear them say "Hi MaMa"! Or when they come running to you with open arms for a hug or a kiss. To be completely honest, I think the days when I feel the two children I have is enough are just fluke days. I think I'm supposed to have more kids. I'm a damn good Mom and I would be nothing short of honored and blessed to have each and every child I bring into this world call me MaMa.

Who doesn't love a HUGE Berry Purse?

I feel like I'm really stressing out for some reason. Or like my body is being pulled in a ton of directions. Cause I feel calm and at peace but I feel stressed at the same time. I'm probably just off kilter because my Husband is out of town again for work. It still sucks to no end but I think I'm getting better with having him gone. Or maybe it's just this time. Next time could (and probably will) be different.

I realized the other day that I'm recognizing things in myself of how I was when I was younger. Before the 'snap'. I used to be such a book worm and just adore words. I've noticed that that is back. I honestly think the Zoloft that my Doc. gave me for post pardum stuff is the reason why. I'm still way bouncy off the walls and here to there but I'm more me then I have been in.. oh, I'd say 18 or so years. It's wonderful too! I'm taking the lowest amount that they can give you and it's just made a world of a difference. It makes me kinda sad that I still obsess over my body though. I still weigh alot (in my opinion) but my clothes are looser. My wedding rings flop around on my finger where they didn't even really fit me before I got pregnant for my 2nd little one. My body is definately differant.

I've also noticed that I've become obsessed with fashion. I think, in a way, I always have been. I am in love with the 60's era. Always have been. I've noticed a lot of those types of styles are coming back and I'm just in love with it. I used to dress like a total hippie and it was ME! It's who I am.. Then, I gained weight and I was poor and I just couldn't shop. I still can't shop a lot but I've been able to pick up some things here and there.. There are a few things at a local store that I would just LOVE to buy but I can't right now. I've decided that along wtih my book store (which I've been accumulating books for) I'm going to flip clothing. I know places whre I can get super designer clothing for super cheap. Then, I'm going to flip them and sell them for full price. I'll make a major profit! I sat down and figured it all out. I think it's going to be super fun. I'm thinking I need to find something super cheap that I can make a huge profit on this week. I know of a watch that I can get for like $130 and it goes for $1100. That's oober profit! Maybe I can do that this week and go do a major fashion overhaul for myself. That would be fantastic. I've noticed that berry colors and dark rich colors are in style for Fall. Can I say one thing? LOVE IT!!!! I love the berry colors and purple colors that are super in style right now. I so want to get a new purse in a rich berry color. I think that would be fantastic.... I've been stuck on at word lately.

Side Bar: I totally just signed up on Dictionary.com for a word of the day news letter... I'm gonna super dominate in Scrabble next time we play with my parents! WOOT!

Anywho.. I'm feeling super tired. I did a load of shopping today and got myself this nice long sleeved green shirt for fall... oh, and food. BAH! I've been sleeping in my clothes lately it seems.. Not like jeans.. Just sweats and a shirt.. So, I guess I'll just go upstairs and take my bra off and my Halloween Witch socks and climb into the cacoon that I have made out of my bed. When my Husband is gone I pile blankets and pillows and my stuffed Pound Puppy that my Grams made for me when I was like 3 or 4 in the middle of my HUGE bed and just snuggle in.. It's great fun.

I'm not looking forward to when the laxitives I took wake me up in the middle of the night..

and to make things that much better. I have my 'monthly gift'.. Being a Woman Rocks..

I apologize for misspellings.. but I don't care to recheck

Ohhh Boy

I am in severe need of a mental health day. My brain feels so exhausted. I'm trying to find books to build my inventory. I need to find models for the clothes so I can do a shoot and get that over with. On top of taking care of my family and home. On top of saying I would start going to Weight Watchers meetings with my Mother-In-Law. The cat got locked in what will be my youngest daughters room and pooed on the floor. Thank goodness that's being replaced anyways. Oh and I'm obviously still a student. I can't seem to not get a B. Most would think that a B is good but I don't and my Mother doesn't. She says I need to study more but it's difficult with so much on my plate.

I feel like I'm going crazy and my brain is falling to mush. and I seriously don't have time to write that much right now. No matter how much I want to.

I'm so A.D.D.

I'm feeling very frustrated right now by people. So many people.

My 'sister' and her husband are nothing but lazy. He has hip and back problems and she 'can't work with people'. Or something. They don't pay their bills and it seems as though they expect other people to help them all the time. Be it the Gov. or my parents. Everything that is going on right now just has the lady who gave birth to us's stench all over it.. and it stinks bad! I give them 3 months before they start losing their house. They have this new payment thing now. If they don't pay the $300 some dollars by the due date the percentage rate goes up and the payment doubles. If they don't pay it that month the percentage rate goes up again and doubles again. So, it would be over $1200. My Mom and I were talking this afternoon saying that because when my husband and I were in a bad way they let us move in with them. My husband was working and I was pregnant with our 2nd child and going to school. We were activly looking for a house and paying off all of our bills that were holding us back. Anyways... My Mom and I both know that they are going to expect my parents to let them move in there because of the fact that they let my family move in there for a while. My Mom said there was no way they were moving in there though. She said she wouldn't be able to stand being around them and their kids all day because they're all brats. They break everything. I could constantly bitch about them for forever.

I'm also frustrated with my husband right now. It takes so much to get him to actually do things that are productive, not just cook sometimes and make a mess for me to clean up. Aside from him having the job and me being housewife and Mommy and not really 'earning' money, it almost seems like I'm a single parent. He doesn't even know how to do the littlest things involving the kids sometimes it seems. It seems like he just wants to play with them and that's it. I know this isn't true and I love my Husband, sometimes he just frustrates the HELL out of me.

I've also been collecting books to start my book store. I'm going to start it on Amazon 1st before I find a building and finish school. I also was thinking of other things that I'm going to sell in my store. I figure I'm just gonna go for it and sell out. Sell novelty 'witch baskets' I'll explain more about them later.. I know they'll sell just because people buy stuff like them all the time..

Anyways.. I'm outie. I gotta find something to do..

what? I'm goin' back to sleep

It's early. Well, not that early but I've been up for forever though it seems. I'm so tired. I'm finally better! The girls are still sick and now my husband is sick. Dangit.
My lower abs hurt. Which is good. That's a difficult place to work out for a woman, I guess. I did some pilates yesterday. Only have the work out cause my littest weee one started fussin' so I had to go get her. I may join weight watchers with my mother in law. That should be strange. Anything to get the weight off though. I only have 5 lbs to get 1lb below my weight before I got pregnant with my oldest. I've been workin' it really hard!! I hate actual excersize too. I love walking and swimming. Stuff that doesn't actually seem like exersize. Arobics and crap, I have to literaly force myself to get off my ass and do it. I hate working out. Lucky for me I have 'on demand' so I can switch up my work out often.
I need to go lay back down. My brain feels like mush. Maybe I'll write more later.

I'm a Murderer....

... of germs! I've been sick for like the past 4-5 days. Just a cold with a slight fever here and there but this morning I woke up and was coughing crap up. This means I'm getting better so I started 'mission disinfect'!! I've done the bathroom and Madison's room. I've got a bunch of windows open. and I have a ton left to do! It's probably going to take a few days. I needed to take a break though so I figured I'd come and chillax down here and what not.

I took my CH.2 test yesterday. Got a B... again! Damnit! I just can't seem to shake gettin' 3 wrong every test so far. What do I have to do?? Besides study.. MORE. Which I know I have to do, but it's a little bit hard when you have a toddler and a baby living in the house. Plus, I'm behind on house work because, like I said, I've been sick.

I finally got my blueberries in the freezer this morning though, which is a step in the right direction. I'm somewhat upset because my Mommy has been doing peach jam and I could've helped make some myself but she can't afford to get sick right now cause she has no immune system. She said that she made a enough to give some to me though. I just wish I could've helped.

My husbands littlest brother was in the hospital last night. He was a severely premature baby and even though he's 12 now he still gets breathing problems. I guess last night around 12:30 he went into his parents bedroom and told them he couldn't breathe. They were in the emergency room most the night. He's at home and doing good. Just resting and they have to keep an eye on him. It makes me understand why whenever I tell my husbands mother anything about my babies, like they've been extra tired or something, why she gets a little freaked. Sometimes it bugs me cause she spazes so easily but I have to remember about her youngest son. It makes me understand...

Anyways.. I have tons to do..

Life and Times of a Chicken Noodle Soup Making Bibliophile

I'm totally buggin' today. I'm not used to my Husband being gone. I don't think I'll ever get used to it. It's not like I don't have enough to do here at home. I have plenty to do! It all just seems weird when he's not home and I get a little down. We talk constantly on the phone and stuff it's just not the same.

Yesterday I went and did my shopping and my sister was kind enough to go with and help me. It's a little difficult with two babies and a cart load. Being the bibliophiles we are I bought 9 books. Mostly classics. Adventures of Tom Sawyer, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, A Wrinkle in Time, Secret Garden, ect. I also got John Grisham's 'Playing for Pizza' and The Alchemyst: The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel by Michael Scott. I also got a book for my oldest about animals in the ocean and my sister got her Charlotte's Web. I'm quite excited! Although, I'm going to need a bigger book case soon. In time I plan to have a seperate room where the walls are built in book cases so I can just have my own library. Plus, my book store. I love it!! I'm getting all happy just thinking about it! I love books!! See what a good influence they have on me?

I need to go vacuum and so I can bring the vacuum and broom back upstairs so I can finish cleaning the kitchen so I can start making my chicken noodle soup. Yum. There's nothing like home made chicken noodle soup on a nice fall day. Even if the temp. went up to 68 and needs to desperately go back down to 61..

World's Yummiest Alfredo Sauce

I just posted but I remembered I wanted to share this recipe for the worlds yummiest and biggest artery clogging Alfredo Sauce,


Melt 1 stick (1/2C.) Real Butter in a sauce pan.
Add 1/4t. salt
Parsley flakes
Pepper to taste
4 cloves garlic chopped fine
Simmer about 5 minutes
add 1/2C. GOOD parm. cheese (block or shreaded)
2pts. (2 of the smaller containers) of sour cream
Gently heat through
Good for 1lb noodles


It's sooooo gooood!!! You'll love it!

What?

My Husband is in Tennesse for work and I feel more .... I don't even know the word for it. For some reason it seems like I can't do anything! I keep spilling things and freaking out. Which is not good because for the most part I keep this house flowing. Yes, I'm a stay at home Mom. I don't go out of the house for a job. At home I manage the finances, make and keep track of appointments, do the shopping, cook, clean, give baths, take care of pets. I have to study for my class. It doesn't help that I'm totally OCD when it comes to cleaning. I have to have everything in a place and with two babies that's not always easy. I do live a fairly comfortable life though. I do a lot to be able to get the things I want. I've been busy looking for a small at home job that I can do. I always enjoyed making my own money. It's something that makes a person feel accomplished. Even if it's just a little bit of money.

My mind is drifting right now. I can't write.. Maybe I will later. I have to study.

Who DOESN'T want to be a millionaire?

Getting a Millionaire's Mindset
by Glenn Curtis
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
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Let's face it; we all don't make millions of dollars a year, and the odds are that most of us won't receive a large windfall inheritance either. However, that doesn't mean that we can't build sizeable wealth — it'll just take some time. If you're young, time is on your side and retiring a millionaire is achievable. Read on for some tips on how to increase your savings and work toward this goal.

Stop Senseless Spending

Unfortunately, people have a habit of spending their hard-earned cash on goods and services that they don't need. Even relatively small expenses, such as indulging in a gourmet coffee from a premium coffee shop every morning, can really add up — and decrease the amount of money you can save. Larger expenses on luxury items also prevent many people from putting money into savings each month.

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That said, it's important to realize that it's usually not just one item or one habit that must be cut out in order to accumulate sizable wealth (although it may be). Usually, in order to become wealthy one must adopt a disciplined lifestyle and budget. This means that people who are looking to build their nest eggs need to make sacrifices somewhere — this may mean eating out less frequently, using public transportation to get to work and/or cutting back on extra, unnecessary expenses.

This doesn't mean that you shouldn't go out and have fun, but you should try to do things in moderation — and set a budget if you hope to save money. Fortunately, particularly if you start saving young, saving up a sizeable nest egg only requires a few minor (and relatively painless) adjustments to your spending habits.

Fund Retirement Plans ASAP

When individuals earn money, their first responsibility is to pay current expenses such as the rent or mortgage expenses, food and other necessities. Once these expenses have been covered, the next step should be to fund a retirement plan or some other tax-advantaged vehicle.

Unfortunately, retirement planning is an afterthought for many young people. Here's why it shouldn't be: funding a 401(k) and/or a IRA early on in life means you can contribute less money overall and actually end up with significantly more in the end than someone who put in much more money but started later.

How much difference will funding a vehicle such as a Roth IRA early on in life make?

If you're 23 years old and deposit $3,000 per year (that's only $250 each month!) in a Roth IRA earning an 8% average annual return, you will have saved $985,749 by the time you are 65 years old due to the power of compounding. If you make a few extra contributions, it's clear that a $1 million goal is well within reach. Also keep in mind that this is mostly interest — your $3,000 contributions only add up to $126,000.

Now, suppose that you wait an additional 10 years to start contributing. You have a better job and you know you've lost some time, so you contribute $5,000 per year. You get the same 8% return and you aim to retire at 65. When you reach age 65, you will have saved $724,753. That's still a sizeable fund, but you had to contribute $160,000 just to get there — and it's nowhere near the $985,749 you could've had for paying much less.

Improve Tax Awareness

Sometimes, individuals think that doing their own taxes will save them money. In some cases, they might be right. However, in other cases it may actually end up costing them money because they fail to take advantage of the many deductions available to them.

Try to become more educated as far as what types of items are deductible. You should also understand when it makes sense to move away from the standard deduction and start itemizing your return.

However, if you're not willing or able to become very well educated filing your own income tax, it may actually pay to hire some help, particularly if you are self employed, own a business or have other circumstances that complicate your tax return.

Renting Versus Buying

At some point in our lives, many of us rent a home or an apartment because we cannot afford to purchase a home, or because we aren't sure where we want to live for the longer term. And that's fine. However, renting is often not a good long-term investment because buying a home is a good way to build equity.

Unless you intend to move in a short period of time, it generally makes sense to consider putting a down payment on a home. (At least you would likely build up some equity over time and the foundation for a nest egg.)

Buying Expensive Cars

There's nothing wrong with purchasing a luxury vehicle. However, individuals who spend an inordinate amount of their incomes on a vehicle are doing themselves a disservice — especially since this asset depreciates in value so rapidly.

How rapidly does a car depreciate?

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Obviously, this depends on the make, model, year and demand for the vehicle, but a general rule is that a new car loses 15-20% of its value per year. So, a two-year old car will be worth 80-85% of its purchase price; a three-year old car will be worth 80-85% of its two-year-old value.

In short, especially when you are young, consider buying something practical and dependable that has low monthly payments — or that you can pay for in cash. In the long run, this will mean you'll have more money to put toward your savings — an asset that will appreciate, rather than depreciate like your car.

Don't Sell Yourself Short

Some individuals are extremely loyal to their employers and will stay with them for years without seeing their incomes take a jump. This can be a mistake, as increasing your income is an excellent way to boost your rate of saving.

Always keep your eye out for other opportunities and try not to sell yourself short. Work hard and find an employer who will compensate you for your work ethic, skills and experience.

Bottom Line

You don't have to win the lottery to see seven figures in your bank account. For most people, the only way to achieve this is to save it. You don't have to live like a pauper to build an adequate nest egg and retire comfortably. If you start early, spend wisely and save diligently, your million-dollar dreams are well within reach.

Ugh.. I have no idea why I'm doing this this early in the morning. I usually don't like technology like this this early. My brain is usually in a fog. Ex: I tried to sign into my blog with the last four digits of my S.S. number. That's what I use to sign into my online class. I had to get Husband up for work and I ended up not being able to get back to sleep. My brain suddenly started yelling at me about all sorts of differant things. Things that bug me for the most part.

For example, I took my 1st Business test of the semester yesterday. I got a B!!!! <-- those are NOT happy exclamation points! Those are angry ones! A frickin' B?! Most would say "oh my god, that's so great.." blah blah blah.. Not I says the frog. I'm angry with myself. Coming out of a class where I aced every test of the whole semester into getting a B.. So, I started mega outlining the next chapter and highlighting up my book like it's a frickin' christmas tree.. What christmas trees have to do with highlighters or classes, I don't know. but I also don't care.

side bar: I just noticed on my weather channel on my desktop that the temperature just dropped from 50 degrees to 48 degrees. Isn't it supposed to warm up as the day gets going?

Anywho... I don't think I want to bitch anymore.. I think I'm going to partake in a late Thankful Thursday that my sister does...


I'm absolutly thankful for my Mommy. She has been through so much in her life and has taught me so much. We tend to not get a long as much when we are living under the same roof but otherwise she's one of my best friends. She recently found out that she does NOT need chemo for the breast cancer she had and I'm thankful for that as well. She's doing good and I'm very proud of her and the positive attitude she kept through the whole thing.

I'm thankful for books. Without them I wouldn't be able to go on half the adventures that I do.

I'm thankful for indoor plumbing.. because when I was little and I tried to pee outside I peed all over myself.

I'm thankful for my children. They are the most wonderful beings in the world and they absolutly saved my life.

I'm thankful for many more things but I think I need to go see if my number 2 is awake and wants to be fed.

Morning.. Well, Kind Of..

Today has been busy so far. I've got laundry done, the kitchen cleaned up (kind of), got together all things witchy that I have so far that were scattered around (all spells I've written and tips and tricks) and put them in one place. Well, except for links to my supply closets.. so to speak. Started a food diary, again.. I came down to the basement to get the vacuum and figured I'd stop for a few and make a small update. I think later I'm going to post my most favorite chant for getting through a particularly scatter brained day. I wrote it a few years back and I've used it many times and it works wonderfully. Anyone who reads this can feel free to use it if they wish but do keep in mind that all spells work better when you write them yourself! =)

I've been so obsessed with Nirvana lately. I have only one of their c.d's that I got in like '98 but I have no idea where it is. We've lost a few c.ds over time. I also have to order off Overstock the thing that fixes scratched c.ds. Almost all of ours are scratched.

I also have to take my 1st Intro to Business test today. I feel like I have a ton to do and I can hear Numero 2 yelling for me upstairs. She probably doesn't want to be in her bassinet anymore.. I should probably skidaddle for now... Is that how you spell it?

RADIO EDIT:

okay.. here's that chant I promised:

Let Time Go Fast
Let the Past be Past
Let Me Make It Through This Day
With Ease and Simplicity all the Way
By All the Power of 3 Times 3
As I Will it, So Shall it Be



Say it as many times as you need until you feel comfortable. =) It is a silly little rhyme but it's helped me through many a day.

okay

I've had blogs before and I usually end up with a few readers based on the things I talk about and other people's search criteria. Therefore, I will start out with saying a few things about me. My name is Liz.. That is the only name anyone will ever see mentioned in this blog. I am 24, a wife and a Mommy of two adorable girls. I will never post pictures of my family on here. Specially my daughters. So, do not even ask. I am very protective. I am a student. Studying business. I plan to own my own book store. I'm constantly reading.

Many people will not like the things that I write about. Many things I write about are considered controversial. I talk about religions. Lack of religion. Witchcraft..(I am a practicing witch) Eating disorders.. Mental disorders...these are a few big things that I do discuss often. I have struggled with an eating disorder most of my life. It is not active right now but anyone who's ever had an eating disorder knows that it's a daily battle. If you are one of the people that does not like what I talk about or does not like my "attitude" please feel free to piss off... I am doing this for me, not you.

On the lighter side I will probably discuss books, music, movies.. I'll probably ramble about my classes and my home. I am slightly OCD. I am constantly cleaning. Constantly worried about my one year old getting dirty feet on the floor, there not being enough clean dishes. I do laundry 2-3 times a week for a family of four?? One of which is a 8 week old. A rational person would say that this is un-needed. To me, it is very much needed. I am constantly striving to be perfection. I cook, clean.. I am a secretary for my Husband. I am obsessed with getting all A's (which I wasn't always). I am obsessed with order. I get angry if things are not in their place. I am constantly picking up my one year olds toys and books. She totally takes after me in the sense that she LOVES to read and she LOVES books.. I've got about 12 books on save on Amazon. I love Amazon. I love all bargin shopping actually. Overstock has become my favorite website ever! Can you tell that I may slightly be a little A.D.D also? I am scatter brained and I go quickly from one subject to another.
I have a hard time making up my mind and it's constantly changing.

Anyways, I have things I need to do before the girls get up and my Husband gets home.

I apologize for any spelling errors..