Hmmm

Britney Spears 5"4 130 lbs. 21.6

Diana Ross 5’4 100 lbs. 17.2

Drew Barrymore 5'4 120 lbs. 20.6

Keri Russell 5'4 117 lbs. 20.1

Kirsten Dunst 5"4 100 lbs. 17.2

Lacey Chabert 5'4 105 lbs. 18.0

Michelle Williams 5'4 110 lbs. 18.9

Shania Twain 5'4 110 lbs. 18.9

Stacey Dash 5'4 110 lbs. 18.9


Some, in my opinion are outrageously too thin..

Pears

I'm getting super frustrated. I need to do a major clothing shopping trip. I keep shrinking, which is great! But now I've got a ton of loose skin (ew). I've also aquired my lovely pear shape back. All of my pants are big in the waist and not small in the legs but not as big as in the waist. Ya know? So I have hardly anything to wear really. UGH!

Anyways.. I have to go finish getting ready to take my daughter to get her year and a half shots.

AH!

Why does shit consume me so much? Why do I constantly obsess? Why do I 2nd guess myself all the time? I was perfectly fine. Now this has taken over my brain and it's frustrating me.


Damn these people... (see inside)

Takin' a Breather

Okay.. So, my Husband got another job.. In a place he worked like 2 years ago. It was the best job oportunity for him right now. He had to take a slight pay cut but I think we'll be okay. I'm doing the whole selling book thing but I'm pretty much just breaking even. I've also been ponding the thought of giving beginners piano lessons to make a little extra cash. It's something I've just been rolling around in my head the past couple days. I have no idea where to start. I took lessons for 7 years and I was damn good if I may say so. My Mom suggested I call my old teacher and ask her some questions about starting it up. Plus, I have to price out music and try and get students.. Should be interesting if I do it.

Otherwise, not much else goin' on here. Nothing new anyways..

We're just able to breathe now that we know we will be having some cash coming in.

The Price of Being Happy

My Husband got laid off..

2 Words.... WE'RE FUCKED.

We had a good 6 months.. Aparantly though our life is supposed to suck..

The List Keeps Building.

I'm so totally tired it's unreal. I offically added another job title to my list today. Business Owner. I've got my Amazon shop up and running. Troutman Books & Beyond. I have already made some sales so I've been running around buying up those bubble envelopes and labels and all that jazz.. I've made a list of a bunch of stuff I have to get. Thank goodness for my Mom too. She gave me a few helpful tips. Bless her soul.

I've been so busy with everything and it's pissing me off cause I'm starting to not be able to sleep again. Which scares the shiz out of me to be completely honest. I need unchemicalized sleep or my brain just goes all wacky.

I'm losing weight on the Weight Watches.. Well, I technically only did the counting points thing for like a week. Once I got the jist of it I started eating way more veggies and getting more exercise. And it's just sheddin' off. Which makes me happy. I'm offically back down to pre pregnant with 1st Baby Girl weight. YaY!!

Whatever.. I need to try and go to bed.

Blessing

When I was younger, I never wanted any kids at all. Now I have the two most amazing little girls in the whole world and I know that I was supposed to have children. I was supposed to be a Mommy. There are somedays when the two I have is enough and I think I could go the rest of my life with out having anymore. Then, there are days like today. Where I could stand having six kids! or 8 kids! They are the most amazing things in the world. There is absolutly nothing better then to watch them learn and grow. To see their smiling faces when you get them up in the morning. Nothing will melt your heart more then when you hear them say "Hi MaMa"! Or when they come running to you with open arms for a hug or a kiss. To be completely honest, I think the days when I feel the two children I have is enough are just fluke days. I think I'm supposed to have more kids. I'm a damn good Mom and I would be nothing short of honored and blessed to have each and every child I bring into this world call me MaMa.